Showing posts with label Stephen Cobb. Show all posts
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Prostate Cancer Diary Day Two (of too many?)


Yesterday's trip to Sainsbury's did not yield a suitable physical diary in which to record my "prostate cancer journey." But I did enjoy a couple of eggs on toast and a decaf flat white. I did not make a decision about which prostate cancer treatment path to pursue.

Sunday 29 March, 2026

Unknown Illustrator, Public domain, via Wikimedia Commons: Digital rectal exam (DRE); drawing shows a side view of the male reproductive and urinary anatomy, including the prostate, rectum, and bladder; also shows a gloved and lubricated finger inserted into the rectum to feel the prostate.  https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Digital_rectal_exam.jpg
Prostate identified in digital rectal exam (DRE)

I always take a little time on Sunday mornings to reflect. It's a lingering echo from growing up in a churchgoing family. A regular topic of that reflection is gratitude. I am truly grateful for how fortunate I have been in life, and how to have had a life full of many wonderul experiences and people, a life that has lasted over seven decades so far. 

All of which helps when you have to face the fact that there are cancer cells growing deep inside your body. Cells that could reach your spine and other organs and eventually kill you. Cells that are not going to go away without some fairly serious trauma. In the case of prostate cancer like mine that trauma is either:

A. Surgical removal or all or part of the prostate - an organ about which many of us humans remain relatively ignorant for most of our lives. (See diagram for location, relative size, etc.)

OR

B. A two-pronged attack through hormone manipulation and radiotherapy. The latter uses high-energy electromagnetic radiation to "zap" (target and damage) body tissue, specifically and hopefully, the cancer cells in the prostate.

The odds that either A or B will put the cancer into remission (no longer active) are about the same. Unfortunately, both A and B can have some serious side effects like incontinence, loss of erection and/or ejaculation, and more. I will delve into these in a future post.


Prostate Cancer Diary Day One (of how many?)


The most recent NHS figures show a huge rise in prostate cancer cases, jumping from just under 52,000 in 2021 to more than 64,000 in 2022.
UK Prostate Cancer statistics from NHS via Prostate Cancer UK

Prostate cancer, often referred to by doctors as PCa, appears to be on the rise in the UK and the US. Ten years ago my brother found out he had it. That prompted me to get tested and in 2021 doctors detected "a tiny amount of cancer" in my prostate. Unfortunately, by 2025 that amount had increased to the point where treatment was needed. By March of 2026, the medical system was ready to offer me that  treatment. 

[Note: This blog post was supposed to be the start of a diary documenting the process of deciding which treatment to have, and then my experience of that treatment. Unfortunately, I have not be able to find the time and/or energy to write many diary entries beyond this one. But I have left it here in the hopes of filling in the gaps later.]

Saturday 28 March, 2026

When I woke up today I found I was thinking about prostate cancer treatment; not just my prostate cancer treatment, about which I must make a decision in the next few days, but prostate cancer in general. More specifically, my mind was going over the timing of that treatment and, as I put on my dressing gown and headed for the stairs, the term lackadaisical came to mind.

According to Vocabulary.com: "Even though lackadaisical sounds like it has something to do with a shortage of daisies, it means lacking in spirit or liveliness, showing little enthusiasm, effort, or determination. And that's the vibe I've been getting throughout my "prostate cancer journey." That journey started slow and low key in 2021, which was fine, but in the past 12 months it has heated up. The medical response has not been as urgent as I would have liked.

However, when I got downstairs, thoughts of cancer treatment were suddenly replaced by remembrance of something I didn't do yesterday: reconfigure the WiFi so that printer works properly. I remembered this because I need to print out the latest correspondence from the urologist if I am going to make the case for greater urgency. 

The reason why I didn't fix the printer yesterday, when I realized there was a problem, will help illuminate my current situation. The problem occured while my partner, CC, was using the Internet, and I didn't want to bother her. This would not have been a big deal six or seven years ago, but these days CC suffers from chronic fatigue and is cognitively impaired due to two brain haemorrhages and an insidious genetic condition. All of which makes tackling domestic IT issues a lot more complicated than it used to be.

On the plus side, CC sleeps until nine in the morning most days, so stuff like reconfiguring the WiFi is best done at the start of the day. However, by the time I made my cereal and coffee and sat down to catch up on email and news this morning, I could already hear CC getting up to go to the bathroom. 

When that happens I listen for her to walk back to her room because, if she is not planning to go back to sleep, she will typically call downstairs to ask for a beverage. Today she requested a ginger ale, not the usual tea or hot chocolate. So I took her a glass of GA and decided to do the WiFi tomorrow.

Which was fine because today I need to write down the big idea I had when I woke up this morning: Write a diary! My thoughts about the many days that have passed between the various stages of my prostate cancer diagnosis and treatment. The idea? 

Microscopic view of prostate cancer, specifcally histopathologic changes indicative of adenocarcinoma of the prostate. By Dr. Edwin P. Ewing, Jr. of the US CDC ergo public domain. Cropped and rotated by Stephen Cobb
Prostate cancer (PCa)
under a microscope
Yes, I know writing a diary is not an original idea. Indeed, it would be natural to expect that a human in their eighth decade, one who has been writing stuff for seven of those decades, an educated chap who for many years earned a living from his writing, would be no stranger to keeping a diary. Yet somehow I've managed to get this far without keeping track of my thoughts any actions on a daily basis. 

Of course, like many writers, the thought "must write a diary" was not immediately followed by the act of putting pen to paper. No, my first impulse was to tell myself I needed to buy a diary to write in. Pretty sure I've seen A5-size diaries at Sainsbury's. So maybe the next step on this journey is drive there, grab a diary and an early lunch, and ponder my prostate cancer treatment options.

Given the stage I am at, technically known as Grade Group 3, Gleason 7 (4+3), organ-confined, the basic choice is between surgery to remove the prostate, or a combination of radiotherapy and hormone therapy to kill off the cancerous cells and the testosterone on which they feed.


The Welcome Page


This post used to be pinned to the top of the blog but I decided to let it move down the stack. It's purpose was, and still is, to explain that I am Stephen Cobb and this is my personal blog. 

The blog was set up in 2005 but I didn't start regular blogging on it until 2006. That's because I had another blog, also started in 2005, where I covered my main interest back then: information security.

Over time, this blog became a place to talk about things other than cybersecurity. Things like dealing with several medical conditions: my primary aldosteronismbasal cell carcinoma, and very low grade prostate cancer; also my partner's hemochromatosis and Giant Cell Arteritis (UK readers can just add an 'a' after the 'e' in the hemo words).

Brief notes on 70+ years of life

I was born in a house in the medieval city of Coventry, in the middle of England, in the middle of the last century, to parents who survived heavy aerial bombardment in the global conflict known as World War Two, which ended seven years before my life began. 

After going to university—first in Leeds and then in Canada — I travelled the world for several decades before moving back to the city of my birth with my partner and our adopted cat, Lola (seen above).

My partner of 39 years, the phenomenal Chey Cobb, is a US citizen, legally resident in the UK. I am a citizen of both the UK and the US. We have both spent, and continue to spend, a lot of time researching how humans create and confront technology risks and health challenges. I write about my research for a variety of websites and publications, like:
This blog is where I write about more personal stuff such as: the fact that I'm retired, although I'm still open to interesting projects; my plans to publish another book, but I'm not sure when; my attempts to raise awareness of the medical problems which disabled my partner; the role of registered carers and how it can be supported; my hopes for radical reform of the patriarchal medical establishment that continues to fail women so badly. 
Photo of a Minolta lens on my Olympus camera

On a lighter note, Chey thinks I should have a hobby to take my mind off things, so I'm been trying "classic glass" photography: using lenses from old 35mm film cameras to take pictures with modern digital cameras (for example, the Minolta lens on my Olympus camera shown here).

On a more serious note, I feel the need to use some of my "free" time to contribute to society. So in addition to sharing my knowledge about thwarting digital criminals, I serve on the board of a charity, Carers Trust Heart of England

I also do driving jobs for our local hospital as one of the hundreds of UHCW Volunteers. As I travel around Warwickshire collecting and delivering patients I engage in another hobby: sampling independent coffee shops and their menus.

Fortunately, I still find some time to continue my research at the nexus of ethics and technology. I am currently exploring the harm caused by abuse of technology, which I have written about here. and talked about here, on YouTube.

If you want to contact me, you can use the form on this page or find me on Facebook or LinkedIn

Note: I am aware of some formatting issues and missing images in the older articles on this site—a side-effect of moving this blog from WordPress to Blogger—I'm fixing them as and when I can.

2,500 Blog Posts and Counting


Stephen CobbThat's 2,500+ blog posts if you count all my posts across all my blogs and those of my employer (ESET). My blogging is now very infosec-oriented, but I'm still spreading the word about the silent genetic killer, hereditary hemochromatosis, on the Celtic Curse blog and the largely-self-sustaining Facebook hemochromatosis page, which now has over 1,750 followers. Of course, all views expressed on cobbsblog.com are mine and not those of my employer.

So San Diego: Dog bowls and sunsets


So what happened to September? Not a single September post on the Stephen Cobb Blog? That's right, I was busy settling into my new job here in San Diego at ESET North America. I'm part of the research team and, as it  says on my business cards, my job title is Security Evangelist. But I did blog in September, seven times on the ESET Threat Blog.


Working a blog with multiple contributors is one of the many things I'm loving about this new position. Another nice thing about the job is San Diego itself. I'm sure that San Diego has "issues" that I will encounter (and blog about, right here). No city is perfect, but sometimes a city can feel like a perfect match. For someone who loves to travel--like me--San Diego is both a great place to come home to, and a great place to travel from. I can look out the window and see cars, trains, boats, and planes. Okay, so sometimes these are noisy cars, trains, boats, and planes; but like all modes of transportation, they create this great sense of possibility, of going places.


San Diego Dog Bowls at Baja Betty'sAnd sunsets. San Diego has amazing sunsets. Friends and relatives are already getting tired of me emailing them my San diego sunset pictures, so I decided to illustrate this post with something else that is very San Diego: water bowls for your dog. Such bowls are a common site outside San Diego stores and restaurants (many of the latter welcome dogs in the outside eating areas, of which there are many). This particular eatery caught my eye because they had thoughtfully provided bowls in a range of sizes to suit different dogs.


So, in San Diego you can walk your dog to the local restaurant, enjoy great food in the open air, plus canine companionship and, let's face it, watch a great sunset nearly every day.


San Diego Sunset

Over 1,300 Blog Posts and Counting


Phew, looks like the blog is fixed. Thanks Jason! Links were not working for a while.  Please enjoy some examples of the more than 1,300 blog posts I've penned since 2006:

Jeremy Dean's Back to the Futurama: A moving art project rolls from Hummers to horse carts.

How Was Your Presidents' Day? My first post on the new Monetate real-time marketing blog.

Can You Hear Me? Radio interview at ad:tech


speakerAs you can see from the lack of recent posts on Cobbsblog, things have been particularly busy this month. My November started out with a trip to a trade show in New York called ad:tech. This event brings together a very interesting mix of companies that are in some way or another related to digital marketing.

Digital marketing is one way to describe what my work for Monetate is all about, so I was at the show checking out the digital marketing scene and looking to learn whatever I could. (Quote du jour: "A real expert always looks to learn more and does not always try to look like he's learned everything.")

Judging by the huge crowds, digital marketing is doing well these days. For all our sakes I am hoping that the larger-than-expected attendance bodes well for the economy in 2010.

Shortly after I fought my way through the check-in lines and gained entrance to the exhibit hall I was interviewed for WebmasterRadio by marketing guru Bryan Eisenberg. Here is a link to the interview. (I apologize for sounding out of breath but I had to shout to be heard above the crowd--the sound engineers at WebMasterRadio did an amazing job of filtering out background noise but they couldn't change the fact that I was shouting.) Oh, and here's a link to Bryan.

Anyway, if you take a listen to the interview you will get an idea of what Monetate is about and what my role as "evangelist" for the Monetate technology involves. (If you can't listen to the audio right now, the short answer is that my role as an evangelist is to get people excited about what the technology can do.)

I carry out my role by communicating across multiple media, most of which don't charge for participation. Over the years I have learned how to do this out of necessity, often working for startup companies that did not have a marketing budget to speak of (or we had a budget but it got eaten by engineering, or product delivery, or something else that was deemed a priority over marketing at the time).

Starting from back in the days when this type of thing was called guerilla marketing, I have pioneered the idea that if you offer up free content that is also valuable content, people will find that content, consume that content, and give some respect to the content creator. So when I created a web site back in the mid-nineties that was full of high quality computer security information, people who had read the content would call up looking for security advice, which we sold as security consulting, creating a blue ribbon client portfolio that became very valuable and was eventually snapped up by a much bigger company that paid us a premium for it.

A dozen years on and I am working on marketing a marketing product, finding that a lot of people have twigged to this strategy, so things are not quite so easy. But the strategy is still sound and I will keep persevering, adding new tactics like social media (an umbrella term for Facebook, Twitter, LinkedIn and blogs) to my arsenal. And of course, radio interviews whenever they present themselves.

Blog Backlog: Computer Security Handbook 5th Edition Launches


csh5I got a nice nod last week from Norwich University in an article about Wiley's soon to be launched 2,000 page behemoth: "Computer Security Handbook, 5th Edition."

It turns out that 37 of the 80 chapters are by people with Norwich connections. That includes me (Chapters 4, 7, 15, 20) and Chey (Chapters 15, 41, 73).

Although I got interviewed for the article, to highlight cooperation between Norwich professors and students, I kind of wish they had also mentioned Chey. She wrote a lot of the curriculum material for the original Master of Science in Information Assurance at Norwich. And I think she and I are the only couple to work together on a chapter in the new opus (Chapter 15: Penetrating Computer Systems and Networks, also with Mich Kabay).

On the whole, David Corriveau did a good job with the article. Hopefully, my comments conveyed the fact that Mich Kabay should get the credit my collaboration with Corinne LeFrançois at the NSA. It was a classic electronic encounter. Pure email, we never met in person. (It is worth noting that I also met Mich online, about twenty years ago, while I was living in Scotland and he was living in Montreal. That was back in the days of CompuServe.)

Mich is the one is the thread that runs through all of this, the MSIA program and the Computer Security Handbook, both CSH4 and CSH5. And with that, we wish the best of luck to "Computer Security Handbook 5th Edition" and all who sail in her!

Now on DVD: Dare Not Walk Alone


Yesterday was the "official" release date for the retail DVD of Dare Not Walk Alone. This DVD is something of a milestone for those of us who worked on this project. It comes a staggering 5 years after Jeremy decided to make the film and about 4 years and 3 months after Chey and I got involved. Jeremy is now married and no longer in his twenties. Chey and I are still married (and still in our fifties).

We are all extremely grateful to everyone who pitched in at various stages of this long and winding road. If this film beats the odds (again) and suddenly becomes "an overnight sensation," we will be able to say, in all honesty: "That was a very long night, but totally worth it." What follows is the press release that went out through erelease and PRNewsire.

BROOKLYN, N.Y., Nov. 11 /PRNewswire/ -- Dare Not Walk Alone, a feature-length documentary about little-known events in America's civil rights struggle, is now available on DVD at Wal-Mart and other stores. The film clearly illustrates what President-elect Obama has called "the gap between the promise of our ideals and the reality of their time." While documenting Dr. King's heroic campaign to end segregation, the film also paints a disturbing portrait of lingering inequality, some 40 years later, in one community where that campaign was waged.

The Dare Not Walk Alone trailer can be seen at the film's web site: http://darenotwalkalone.com.

Created by Brooklyn-based artist and director Jeremy Dean, Dare Not Walk Alone has been hailed by critics as "a powerhouse of a picture" and "important filmmaking." However, making the film was an uphill battle, according to executive producer Stephen Cobb. "The director insisted the film go beyond documenting the bravery and brilliance of Dr. King's victorious strategy of non-violence to explore the aftermath of that victory," said Cobb. "But a lot of people thought this approach was too radical for a mainstream audience."

Yet this is one small-budget independent documentary that beat the odds and achieved DVD distribution through major stores like Wal-Mart, Target, FYE, Movies Unlimited, and Amazon.com. The film's distributor is Indican Pictures.

"When Indican told us Wal-Mart ordered DVDs," says Dean, "we were thrilled, but also stunned. That's almost impossible when you're an indie project with no star backing."

Although the DVD is not on the shelves in every Wal-Mart yet, the retail giant is shipping from Walmart.com, according to Cobb.

"Our hats are off to both Wal-Mart and Indican," said Cobb. "We're delighted with Indican because they have moved us closer to our goal of giving everyone in America a chance to see this film."

The DVD features interviews with Ambassador Andrew Young and the late James Brock, owner of the motel in St. Augustine, Florida, where Dr. King was arrested. There is also an interview with Dean who is currently on a campus tour, most recently appearing at Notre Dame University's WorldView Film Series.

About Dare Not Walk Alone

Featuring rare archival footage, the film also contains recent interviews with participants in the campaign to pass the 1964 Civil Rights Act. The project began in 2003 when director Dean was still in his twenties. After post-production work at Atlanta-based Crawford Communications, the final cut debuted in 2007 and was quickly signed for distribution by Indican Pictures. Theatrical screenings in New York, Los Angeles, and Portland garnered praise from critics:

"Powerful slice of roiling American history."
-- Los Angeles Times

"Has great potential to do real good in the world."
-- Boxoffice.com

"Minutely attuned to disparities of class and race ... a triumph of outrage and empathy."
--Willamette Week

"Deserves to be seen."
--New York Times

"Packs a punch."
-- Village Voice

Contact:
Jeremy Dean, writer and director
347-429-2427
email: info@dnwa.info
Web Site: http://darenotwalkalone.com